"I gave you my heart.
That's all I give you.
And if that's not enough for you, I'm not enough for you."

-  Hayley James Scott 

Soundwave 2011

    This year was my first year participating in show choir and I have to admit it has probably been the highlight of my junior year. It has been such an AMAZING experience. I loved that I got to share my passion with so many other girls who have the same passion. I made tons of new friends and had such a blast. The late night rehearsals, dancing and singing for hours on end, the pre-show rituals, the tears shed at circle on prank night, and just the love of one big soundwave family. 


    I am so thankful for all of the precious people that came to support me! You guys are all to precious and i am so glad I had the support of you all! I don't know what I would have done! Shout out to my mom for being an awesome president of her committee and all the time and effort she put into helping me and doing stuff for the show. 


   Our year started out a little rough but we pulled through with an awesome show. I loved getting to spend time with all of the talented girls. I've had a blast and I can not wait until competition in Birmingham!!!

peace peace double peace 

Can you feel it now?

King of anything

Mr. postman

Think 

Take on me

rock what you got

j-unit 2012 

come on people lets grow up now

     Ok I don't care how cool you are or think you may be but if your going to talk about someone at least don't do it in front of their face. I mean really? Are you that stupid to think I'm not going to know your talking about me when you are saying my name and starring at me? Im not dumb and to tell you the truth I could really care less if you talk about me. If that is your prerogative then be my guest but then don't go around telling people that I am the one that hurt your feelings because thats just  a lie. Get over yourself and grow up. Act your age.

    I dont understand why people can not just grasp the concept or the maturity of being your age and growing up. I mean I gossiped in the 4th grade about people in front of their face. Be mature. Don't tattle tale especially when it's a lie!  I mean really? We are in the 11th grade. To a certain extent some people are just completely and utterly rude. i understand your mad ok well get over it. Don't try to keep rehashing the past. one people don't think its funny and two it just make things worse. Build a bridge and get over it. You can only harp on one thing for a certain amount of time then it just gets old and you just look stupid.

well fellow blog followers that is my rant for the day hope you enjoyed

peace peace double peace

" Sometime when you care about someone alot you just know you will make some kind of mistake and you end up losing the person you care the most about but if your lucky you might get a second chance."

- Peyton Sawyer

Invisible

There are some days when I wish I was a superhero and my power was invisibility. Today is one of those days I just wish I was invisible, and to some people I am.  I am just to tired to even function. I just don't want to hold a conversation with anyone and I am not in the mood to respond to a conversation. I actually almost got in a fight with a girl in 3rd period. It got pretty intense.We were yelling across the room and finally she shut up.  I was pretty proud of my self for standing up to her...she was prettty large. To tell you the truth I wasn't really worried about it though because I was to tired to even care. If i would have been invisible this never would have happened, but since I'm not it's a pretty great story.

On the other hand there are days when I don't want to be invisible and I just get ignored. It is as simple as saying hey to someone when they are sitting by you in a class or just acknowledging that they even exist. Even people who say they are my friends and don't even acknowledge my existence. Thats not a friend. Especially not a best friend.

well that is my rant for the day hope you enjoyed it
peace peace double peace

" I want to believe in it all again..music and art...fate and love, and I want to believe that I've made the right choices, and I'm still on the right path, and there's still time to fix some mistakes I've made....I guess I want hope. "

- Peyton Sawyer

" And so I wish for patients and grace , and the strength to just let him be happy . But mostly , I pray for the strength to not make his life worse because of what I want . That's the toughest part ... letting god , you know . That's the part of grace that really sucks." 

- Peyton Sawyer 

"How come I only realize what I want when I don't have it anymore."

- Peyton Sawyer

D-now

  
     This year I had the most precious small group. We were all pretty close to begin with so we were really real with each other. We had a blast skating, learning how to dougie?, and eating amazing cookies. I will say that we had the worst speaker. On the other hand our small group leader was amazing! I can not express how great it was. I learned so much and had a blast with all of my friends. God has truly blessed me with a group of girls like this I do not know what I would do without them!

Word of the day: FRICK 

" You were wrong yesterday when you said the kids in the clubs were just there for decadence. I think it's more like romance and hope and inspiration and that feeling that you get when other human beings pick up basic instruments and make sense of your world. And the day that I think it's just aboutmaking money is gonna be the day that. I've betrayed everything I believe in about music and life and myself."

-Peyton Sawyer

Just another one of those dayyys

    Today is one of those days where I wish I could get out of high school. For the most part I have loved high school especially since i moved to ths but there are just some days I could get out of here and go to college and just start over. Go far away where no one knows me and just start a new life. High school just gets so ridiculous some times. will people ever grow up? Will people ever learn to be mature and think before they act or think of someones feelings or what they are doing? The sad thing is most of these people won't. they will remain the same immature teenager they have always been. They wont learn to think of others before they do something they will still rely on their parents for everything and probably won't go to far away from home. Now don't get me wrong I am probably only going to be about 45 minutes away from home, but that is only because it is just logical with the situation with my family right now. It also is where my best friend is going and we were planning on rooming together but lately I don't know if that will be happening including the fact that she has made a new best friend and wants nothing to do with me. If I had the choice especially with all of this going on now, I would go to the university of colorado or somewhere else where no one knows me. My real dream is to go to Julliard though I am pretty sure that is not going to happen.

    At Julliard I would be able to pursue my dream as a singer I would get opportunities like being on Broadway and many other things. I would also get to live in New York... now you have to admit that would be pretty cool. I am wanting to apply to mississippi school of arts for my senior year. It would get me out of Tupelo for a while and I would get to be enjoying my hobby and get graded on it. I would get to study so much music and sing all the time and it would give me a better chance of getting accepted to Julliard. I doubt either one of these things will happen but I guess it is ok to dream.

These have just been my thoughts lately ...

"This has been one of the worst years of my life, and I needed my best friend more then ever, but you cut me out because I was honest with you! And you were never ever honest with me!"

- Peyton Sawyer

Let's be real

    Can no one be real with anyone anymore?
It is not hard to tell the truth or be honest... especially with the person you claim is your best friend. Do not claim someone is your best friend if your not or if your not going to act like it. A best friend is always there for you , a shoulder to cry on, someone to call at 3 am just to talk. You are actually their friend at school not just when its convenient and when no one else is around. Your basically family. BE REAL with each other don't hold back. Pray for each other and lift one another up. One simple thing can change a relationship. If you care about that person enough nothing will ever come between you. Don't make the little things big, focus on the times together and BE REAL.

"You were wrong yesterday when you said the kids in the clubs were just there for decadence. I think it's more like romance and hope and inspiration and that feeling that you get when other human beings pick up basic instruments and make sense of your world. And the day that I think it's just about making money is gonna be the day that. I've betrayed everything I believe in about music and life and myself."

- Peyton Sawyer 

1 Corinthians 3:9

"For we are God's fellow workers; 

You are God's field,

God's building." 

" Many people die with their music still in them. Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live...Before they know it...time runs out."

-Peyton Sawyer 

Colossians 3:1-4

    Since, then, you have been raised with Christ , set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. 

The white death of 2011

So sunday night it snowed about 8 inches. I think that is the most it has snowed out of the 12 years I have lived here. It was beautiful... and we got to miss two days of school. I am praying for a third. That night Sadie and I baked a cake and then went walking. We walked all over the golf course... apparently they had covered up all the ponds and we did not know it but we had been walking on water. We then proceeded to walk down Coley to the gas station just for fun. The next morning we woke up and walked from my house through the country club to oak meadows. We hung out with Kara and Amelia. It was so much fun! We tied an inner tube to the back of Kara's dads truck and her brother pulled us. Of course I ended up in a puddle. After a long afternoon we came home and took a nap.

    Last night i went to Olivia's so that we could play in the snow today. We didn't take any pictures because one we looked rough and two we looked rough but we sure did have a blast! This morning we went to the pasture and tied a wheel barrel to the back of the four wheeler and her dad pulled us... It was soooo much fun! We almost died multiple times. At one point we got slung out and just layed in the snow for a few minutes because we just didn't want to get up. We got to the point we couldn't feel out toes anymore so we climbed up in the deer stand and sat by the heater. Livi got the bright idea to put her feet over it to warm them up... I told her she was going to catch her socks on fire. 5 minutes later we smell something burning... her socks had caught on fire and her feet were so cold she didn't even feel it. Thank god she had 3 layers of socks on it burned through 2. After messing around for a while we went home and drank some hot chocolate. I am still freezing. I don't think I am ever going to be warm again. 

    This has been an AMAZING couple of days. So many sweet memories have been made. It has been way to much fun!

the night it all starte 

snow cowboy???

on the golf course 

just standing in the middle of coley rd...nbd 

goodmorning

of course the year we cant put our cars in the garage its snows

the golf course 

it was up to my knees

the river rat 

karas pulling the truck?

loveee them

best frannds

I fell in a puddle 

Mathew 12:21

"In HIS name the nations will put their hope." 

This week I started a study in Mathew that goes along with something one of the leaders from kanakuk is doing. It is only day 3 and I feel like I have soaked in more of the word than I have in an entire year. Basically she breaks everything down... that is very helpful for me because I tend to just read a verse and then be done. With this I am actually analyzing everything and asking myself questions and trying to put what I have learned into action.It is really helpful and is really testing me to step out of my comfort zone and test my limits and understanding.

Here's the link if anyone is interested http://getupdigin.wordpress.com/ 

ooooklahoma!

     This past week, the last week of our christmas break, I went to Norman, Oklahoma to spend time with my best friend from kamp, Caitlin Hawkins. It was sort of for her birthday but her birthday wasn't actually until today. It was a BLAST to say the least. Every day was packed with excitement and craziness. The second night there I got iniciated into the norman crew. Brooks sang to me which that was kind of freaky because I didn't know him at all but now we are cool and it's funny.

Brooks...a beautiful name to go with a beautiful face...& body 

eye mask wrestling 

happy new year!

     Norman to me is a bigger version of Tupelo. I LOVED Norman! I would move there if I could. Boomerangs... my new favorite chicken place. They have this place called classic 50's or classic's for short. It is a cooler version of sonic and is a billliiiiioooonnn times better. Every thing is abnormal. They have sprittle instead of sprite which is sprite with skittles in it. You can put any kind of candy in or on ANYTHING! It's great! My favorite thing to get there was a dream sickle slush with gummy bears in it.  Most yummy slushy ever! I am going to have to start driving around with gummy bears in my car so that whenever I go to sonic I can put them in my slushy. Slushy's will never be the same. 

   I made so many new friends. There are some really cool people in Norman and apparently that is where everyone is from. Cait definitely surrounds herself with godly influences and still has a blast all the time. She is such an amazing christian girl. I just don't know how she does it sometimes. Being around her just makes you laugh. She is so funny and doesn't even try to be. She has all these funny sayings and abbreviates every word. "It's whatevs... Live your life" Is the typical caitlin quote. I have to say her sayings rubbed off on me. By the time I left I was calling soda pop. 

my two new friends Sara and Claire 

the Antioch crew 

oh me and madison just doing the stanky leg while waiting to play laser tag

  I was definitely not ready to leave. We had such a blast. I would NOT have wanted to spend the last week of my christmas vacation any other way! 

Oh btdubs BOOMER SOONER!